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You,I HATE YOU.How dare you leave me alone at a time like this? What happened to the almost three years we spent together? Wasn't that enough? Is plain old loyalty too much to ask? I sit here, waiting for you to at least acknowledge the fact that you mean so much to me, and yet you barely even bat an eyelash. I wait on you, day and night, hoping for the answers to all my questions. I've always been faithful to you and yet now, you left me out in the cold.Thanks. Abandonment feels so good at a time when everything seems to be too heavy to bear.Sincerely,PatPS: I still can't bring myself to buy a new calculator. But in the event that I am right, and that you're with Ma'am Ranzi after I possibly left you after the Physics 3rd long exam, I will gladly take you back in. You're so cool, high school classmates described you as "pang bagets" and "rocket ship sexy". I just hate how you left me when Bio 12 lab exam's tomorrow-- stupid lah! It involves some statistics. I hate you._________________WHY IS EVERYONE INVITING ME TO PLURK?! Thanks for the offer but I do not enjoy tiny digestible pieces, I want them super-sized! :D Hurray LJ! :DPseudofreedom in less than 24 hours! :D

Have you ever prayed for something incredibly unlikely and got it?Today, I only had 2 classes: Physics 71, and Chemistry 31. And although classes were only in the morning, this day I severely dreaded for the whole 4-day weekend. As the stench of a failed exam on them aromatics, carbonyl compounds and carbs imminent, I found myself begging the Lord for justice. My sleepless nights are about to go down the drain, as that big fat failure in the form of two yellow pads are about to be dropped in my lap. I have a proposal to make. We get 10 percent of the exam last Friday, and instead make it a quiz. Then we have a retake exam.His words were like rain on the Sahara. I get another chance. The Lord is indeed just. As intense studying does not equate to failing marks.***Have you ever prayed for something incredibly unlikely and did not get it?Well, yes I have, on numerous occasions. But really, life isn't really about God serving me. It's actually the other way around.His Will is always the best for me, and for all of us. We may not always see it that way, but looking at the bigger picture (by that I mean everything and anything including outside this mortal universe), it is indeed what's best.Thank God, another chance at Chem is what's best. Nyahaha.

I'm starting to get paranoid,you know, after studying them Platyhelminthes, Nematoda, and Annelida. I swear, images of the Ascaris on the internet are not for the weak.[Okay I was supposed to post an entry last night, but I realized the WiFi was turned off.]So it's Friday night. I'm exhausted, and my eyebags cannot get any more prominent than this. I should be more eager about the three-day break, but frankly, I have no weekend. I've got two three exams, an FR, a handful of plates, a dichotomous key, a 71.1 worksheet and a problem set to keep me busy. Plus there's this Tiburcio family celebration this weekend that I dare not miss. And it doesn't surprise me anymore. It's been this way since day one of college. And it's probably never gonna end until I retire from research work or die-- whichever comes first.Okay, forgive the sinister undertone. I did say I am exhausted. And yet I continue to write, as writing for me is therapeutic.Sometimes, grade school and high school seems to be a lot easier. But considering the more numerous subjects (of rather dispersed fields, mind you) I had to take per semester (erm.. 'kay, YEAR), it's still quite a wonder how I managed to inch my way through elementary and secondary school. I mean, consider Reading-Language/English, with Christian Living Ed/ Christian Life and Math. Juxtapose Home Economics and Living(?) Ed/ Technology Home Economics, Filipino, and Music. Plus, think about the other subjects I took but am too tired to remember. Consider too that my brain and body is still that of a 7-17 year-old. No wonder I was skin and bones most of the time.Oh wait, who could forget Science class- a five-unit class (with lab later on) that everyone was required to take. SCIENCE CLASS. Wow. How generic. It was better though, when starting at sophomore year, we started calling them biology, chemistry, and physics. [These are my subjects this sem btw, Bio 12, Chem 31, and Physics 71. FUN.]Still, it's quite hilarious how one would compare my high school with that of my Science High School blockmates. I recall having this conversation with one of them.Blockmate: [...] So we have a Zoology-related club, a Chemistry club, a Physics one, an Astronomy club. Meron pa atang mga Botany-related org, may club ata para sa mahilig sa mechanical stuff.Me: Ah talaga? Err... sa amin, we have Science Club. :|Mmmkay nakakatawa. What's even more surprising (?) was that I never really wanted to join Science Club. Di ko feel mag-acads related sa non Acads thing. I wasn't always that much of a science nerd thankyouverymuch. Siguro ngayong college lang ako nagpakalunod sa sciences ('cause I had no choice, really).***